1 John 4:10 CSB “Love consists in this: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the atoning sacrifice for our sins.”

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Ever felt lower than the dirt underneath your shoe because of a sin you committed? I have plenty of times. It is my prayer this article will encourage us to defeat those feelings of despair that can be so heavy.

Can I share with you one of my backsliding moments since becoming a Christian? I was a new believer for about a year. One day my wife and I got into an argument. I got so upset I did something I hadn’t done since I became a Christian. I went out and bought some weed. Of course I smoked that weed and wanted to forget all my problems. It worked for a little while. After the highs wore off I felt convicted. My conviction turned into guilt (too much guilt). A voice kept saying in my head, “How could you do this and sin against God, and you’re supposed to be a Christian?” That voice never encouraged me to repent. It only condemned me. Later on I learned that voice was from the Devil. Not knowing this at the time I bought some more weed to drown out that voice and forget my problems. This was exactly what the evil one wanted me to do. Sounds familiar? Before I knew it I was back in the cycle of drugging to forget my pain. I started doing other sins too I had given up. I was so depressed and didn’t know it. I was always smoking weed to feel better. Either that or getting drunk or both. And sadly I eventually split up from my wife.

During this time I went back into the world hard. I pursued my childhood dream of becoming a record producer in the music business. This too kept my mind off of my problems. I was good at arranging, writing, and producing songs of all genres and doors were opening for me fast. I suddenly found myself working with Grammy award winning artists. I don’t like name dropping I’ll only say these artists are legends in the music industry. Some of them have been enshrined in the Rock And Roll Hall of Fame. Satan was making things happen for me quick! And I had completely forgotten about God.😞 I was living the life as they say (or thought I was), when I was really living the worldly lifestyle and had fallen into adultery. 

One day on my way home from a recoding session in New Orleans (I lived in Atlanta at the time) I was driving on the highway entering the state of Georgia. My 5 year old son was sleeping peacefully in the back seat when suddenly a car swerved over in my lane. To avoid hitting the car I hit the breaks and my car started fishtailing (it was raining that morning). I remember it vividly like it was yesterday though this happened 25 years ago. This all occurred so fast and the last thing I remember happened in slow motion like something you see in a movie. The front hood of my car was going underneath the middle part of an 18 wheeler truck! I can’t fully explain how this all happened but I knew that the back wheels of this 18 wheeler are going to crush me and I’m dead. I closed my eyes and yelled, “JESUS!” I’m crying right now as I writing this. I just knew I was dead! I kept my eyes shut for what felt like 5 seconds afraid to open them because I thought I was dead. I know this sounds crazy but it’s the best way I can explain it. When I opened my eyes (very afraid) my car was driving safely on the road straight ahead and there was no 18 wheeler truck in sight!😳 I wasn’t high that morning and hadn’t been drinking. This happened.

In shock I frantically felt the back seat of my car for my son to make sure he was still alive. He was sound asleep as if nothing happened. I then pulled over on the side of the road and cried like a baby. I felt so unworthy of what I had just experienced. And I can’t hold back the tears now while writing this. 

JESUS IS SPECIAL

There are some who will doubt what I just said and that’s ok. There are others who know what I just described is an easy thing for God to do (too easy).😊 God didn’t save me and my son that day because we’re so special or I was living a good life. My life was steeped in sin. I believe God knew I was ignorant about His grace, and in His loving mercy used this miracle to teach me how Wonderful His grace is. I hope sharing this with you will help all of us see and believe what great love God has for ALL OF US! WHILE WE WERE YET SINNERS CHRIST DIED FOR US the Bible says. (Romans 5:8) Here I was backslidden in my sins not even thinking about God, and when I got into trouble I CALLED ON THE NAME OF JESUS AND HE SAVED ME.😳

Romans 10:13 CSB “For everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”

After that happened I just cried like a baby. Then the Devil came with His guilt voice again (at the time I thought it was just my own thoughts) that said, “You’re not even serving God. How dare you call on Jesus to rescue you! You’re using God!” Thank God I was able to think more about His saving grace and power I had just witnessed instead of that ugly, wicked, condemning voice of the Devil. Thinking on God’s love and mercy allowed me to repent. For the first time I began to understand God’s grace.😊 I can’t say that enough.

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Romans 10:13 CSB “For everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”

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Subsequently I also realized that Satan’s Music Business was not for me and got out in a nick of time.🎸 Music had become my god. I turned my back on the true God and hadn’t done a thing deserving to be saved. I still haven’t and never will do anything deserving to be saved. Salvation is a free gift from God. It cannot be earned, it can only be received: 

Ephesians 2:8-9 KJV “For BY GRACE ARE YE SAVED through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the GIFT OF GOD: [9] Not of works, lest any man should boast.”

Thank God for showing me back then I didn’t have to quit serving Him because I smoked a joint, got drunk, or even committed adultery. All I had to do was confess my sin, repent, get back up and receive God’s mercy!😂   

JESUS HAS ALREADY PAID OUR DEBT

Hebrews 9:14 “How much more, then, will the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered himself unblemished to God, cleanse our consciences from acts that lead to death, so that we may serve the living God!”

When a person really understands God’s grace it can change their lives. It makes them never want to be disconnected from God. The Devil knows this. Hence he will whisper thoughts in our minds to make us feel guilty (OVERLY GUILTY) every time we mess up. All guilt ain’t bad. But when we let guilt beat us down and out of our relationship with God, or cause us to wonna just give up, this is from the Devil. 

Some are trapped by the Devil right now. They think they’ve blown it or committed the unforgivable sin when they have not. If that’s you please be encouraged by God’s loving grace.😊 May we seek to encourage others with God’s forgiving grace.😊 Let’s help free them from the Devil’s trap.

I hope this article has encouraged you. It was certainly a nice journey down memory lane for me.😊

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Isaiah 30:20-21 KJV “And though the Lord give you the bread of adversity, and the water of affliction, yet shall not thy teachers be removed into a corner any more, but thine eyes shall see thy teachers: [21] And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.”

Can you determine when something you desire and what God’s word says is at a crossroads? If the answer is, “Yes,” you are so blessed! 😊 Because MANY are not able to do this:

1 Timothy 4:2 KJV “Speaking lies in hypocrisy; having THEIR CONSCIENCE SEARED WITH A HOT IRON.”

Romans 1:28 RSV “And since they did not see fit to acknowledge God, GOD GAVE THEM UP to a base mind and to improper conduct.”

Many are incapable of hearing when God speaks. They have denied the truth so much God has given them up to a depraved mind. It is written. But if you can still hear God’s voice saying, “This is the way, walk ye in it,” when you turn to the left or to the right; even when what God’s word is saying contradicts your feelings and desires, you are blessed!

Contrary to what condemning voices in our heads say, things like; “You blew it again, just give up.” “How can God love you when you keep sinning?” “If God cared about you so much why would you be suffering like this?” GOD HAS NOT GIVEN UP ON US! The fact that you even care about your sins, that you even care about why you are suffering shows you’re still in the fight. And as long as you and I do not give up on God we will continue to hear His voice.

We may get down but we’re never out. We fall short but we get back up. There will be many times we discern we haven’t lived up to God’s righteous standard. And during these times we are reminded of what a kind generous Father we have. He could destroy us in our sin but instead chooses to love us in spite of as long as we do not give up.

When we find ourselves at the crossroads; where what we want and what God desires is in stark contrast, know that this is normal:

Galatians 5:17 GNB “For what our human nature wants is opposed to what the Spirit wants, and what the Spirit wants is opposed to what our human nature wants. These two are enemies, and this means that you cannot do what you want to do.”

God’s thoughts and ways are higher than ours. So of course what we want will at times be at odds with one another:

Isaiah 55:8‭-‬9 GNB “My thoughts,” says the LORD, “are not like yours, and my ways are different from yours. As high as the heavens are above the earth, so high are my ways and thoughts above yours.‬‬‬

Be thankful that you can discern when God is speaking because many cannot. Their consciences have been seared as with a hot iron. Also ask God earnestly in prayer to give you the strength to do what he says. Do not be deceived:

James 1:22 GNB “Do not deceive yourselves by just listening to his word; instead, put it into practice.”

When you fail get back up again. Never give up, that’s the key. And remember Jesus paid a high price with His own blood for our sins. All who are in Christ are forgiven! 😊 So stop condemning yourself. (Romans 8:1)

If God is still guiding you; if you can still hear His voice even when what you want contradicts His will, this is proof that God has not given up on you! You are blessed. Now let’s make our Father proud by obeying Him. 😊

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2 Timothy 3:1 KJV “This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come.”

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2 Corinthians 11:23‭-‬28 EasyEnglish “They may say that they are Christ’s servants. (I speak like a fool.) But I am a better servant than they are. I have worked much more than they have worked. I have been in prisons more often than they have been in prisons. I could not begin to count how many times people have hit me. I have nearly died many times. 24 At five different times, the Jews hit me with a stick 39 times. 25 Other people hit me with sticks three times. People threw stones at me to kill me once. Three times I have been on ships that broke in the sea. Once I was in the sea for a night and a day. 26 I have travelled very much. I have been in danger from rivers and from people who rob. I have been in danger from my own people and from other people, who do not know God. I have been in danger in cities and in country places. I have been in danger on the sea. And I have been in danger from people who said that they were Christ’s. But those people were not really Christ’s. 27 I have worked very much, so that I have been very, very tired. Many times I have not slept. Many times I have been hungry and I have had nothing to drink. Many times I have had no food and I have been cold and without clothes. 28 All these troubles have happened to me. But also, every day I think about all the groups of believers, because they matter so much to me.”

1 Corinthians 4:9-11 NIV “For it seems to me that God has put us apostles on display at the end of the procession, like those condemned to die in the arena. We have been made a spectacle to the whole universe, to angels as well as to human beings. [10] We are fools for Christ, but you are so wise in Christ! We are weak, but you are strong! You are honored, we are dishonored! [11] To this very hour we go hungry and thirsty, we are in rags, we are brutally treated, we are homeless.”

All the words above are inspired by the Holy Spirit. Used to write them was a man who knew a thing or two about sufferings for Christ’s sake. His name was Paul. Paul went through it for the faith. If you and I never go through half of what Paul faced there will still be many trials to endure. Get into the habit of knowing that nothing will always go as it logically should. You’re in a war against the Devil; God’s arch enemy.

Revelation 12:17 MEV “Then the dragon was angry with the woman, and he went to wage war with the remnant of her offspring, who keep the commandments of God and have the testimony of Jesus Christ.”

You’re just minding your own business and out of nowhere someone starts messing with you. That’s the battle we’re in. You report wrongdoing then it somehow gets turned back on you. That’s the battle we’re in. You work hard to be a good husband or wife, then your spouse ups and leaves you. That’s the battle we’re in. You’re a conscientious hard working employee, still you lose your job. That’s the battle. Your children rebel against you; the battle. Your parents reject you; the battle. Like Paul you too even experience homelessness; the battle. You are falsely accused and imprisoned like Joseph; the battle. I can go on and on about life’s misfortunes, and by the way guys even nonbelievers go through these:

1 Corinthians 10:13 KJV “There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.”

It’s good to know that God won’t allow more to come on us than we can bear. But there is a special reason why Satan wants us to go through trials: he is trying to break our faith. Yet God uses these same tribulations to make us strong; make us complete:

James 1:2-4 NLT “Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. [3] For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. [4] So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.”

Guys we’re not just going through stuff just to be going through stuff. God is building His kingdom; His temple, His church. That’s you and me who believe. Yes, we are being refined and designed with eternal purposes in mind. Remember this when things aren’t going like they should (or like we think they should). It’s not about us. It’s about God’s kingdom which you and I are a part of. Expect things to go haywire. None of us can predict exactly what’s going to happen in a battle. Whether it’s a football game or a war between nations there’s always the unexpected. Every battle tactician knows that. YOU ARE A WARRIOR!!! LIVE LIKE ONE!!! Unforeseen occurrences, unimaginables, setbacks, even failures will occur. It’s how we handle these that determine whether we win or lose.

2 Timothy 2:3-4 KJV “Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. [4] No man that warreth entangleth himself with the affairs of this life; that he may please him who hath chosen him to be a soldier.”

We are in the most epic battle: the battle for our eternal souls. Fight well by depending on God, His Holy Spirit, and Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior. Remember, our main foes are not human:

Ephesians 6:12 MEV “For our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, and against spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.”

Expect chaos. You will be surrounded by it. But you can also expect God to be right there with you throughout your storms. And you can expect seasons of refreshment to come from the Lord too. Remember, He has a keen interest in your personal development. You are His inheritance, His special possession. (1 Peter 2:9) He will not leave you all alone:

Genesis 39:20-21 KJV “And Joseph’s master took him, and put him into the prison, a place where the king’s prisoners were bound: and he was there in the prison. [21] BUT THE LORD WAS WITH JOSEPH, and shewed him mercy, and gave him favour in the sight of the keeper of the prison.”

Revelation 2:26-27 KJV “And he that overcometh, and keepeth my works unto the end, to him will I give power over the nations: [27] And he shall rule them with a rod of iron; as the vessels of a potter shall they be broken to shivers: even as I received of my Father.”

Daniel 7:27 KJV “And the kingdom and dominion, and the greatness of the kingdom under the whole heaven, shall be given to the people of the saints of the most High, whose kingdom is an everlasting kingdom, and all dominions shall serve and obey him.”

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